Your Mom's a Prostitute

i want to leave

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 16:33:51 GMT

im going through one of those times in my life again. where i seem to go through my lowest of lows and when im at my worst, the people that could atleast help make things a little better dont seem to be around. im getting sick and tired of this bull shit. i need new friends. ones that are atually worth a damn. but i doubt anyone will actually pay enough attention to this to take me seriously. seems like the people i want to start new friendships with, or pick up on where we left off years ago, dont want to have anything to to with me either. looks like its time to move some place better or just give up on people and go through the rest of whats left to come all by myself.

thanks everyone. i appreciate you're help.

haha. what a joke.

fuck baton rougeians.

fuck ye.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 23:44:27 GMT

i got accepted to south eastern!
go me!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 17:18:23 GMT

so my summer hasnt really been going as planned.

i got a new car (01 jetta, wolfsburg edition)
i got a job working for marine power (building inboard boat motors)
i have yet to go to memphis (that sucks because i need to be there)
up until recently lindsey has been with me for the majority of the summer, but i fucked that up and i guess now theres nothing i can do about it (good bye)

the pressures of getting into college are no longer on my mind. all im worried about now is how im goin gto make it on my own.

in conclusion:
my life = shit/ stress

yea, it sucks

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 20:11:47 GMT

i'll keep this brief.

i quit my job, blew the engine in my car, don't have money to get a new one, so i'm screwed. i have to come up with $900 to pay a fine for possession of mary jane and my year of probation starts right at the beginning of summer; but atleast i'll still have 4/20.

on the brighter side of things, im almost done testing for my GED and im taking the ACT again this summer so i can be in college by the fall.

This summer should be full of work, sobriety, Lindsey and Memphis.

ho ho ho

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 18:42:08 GMT

i hardly ever update, but i figured i might as well seeing as how im bored n all.

so my birthday was Friday. I'm 18 now. no more asking other people to buy my tobacco or worrying about gettin carded. not to mention, ill be spending load of time at hearts now. i got lots of neat things. i.e. cellular device (feel free to holla holla holla 274-5123), 30GB ipod, schtuff fo my rizide.

today is x-mas. i woke up late, ate lots of food and got even more presents. ill be living at the mall and McD's for free for a week or so.

the only downside to these holidays is lindsey leaving for Tennessee the day before my birthday. shes gonna be back soon, i hope.

memphitopia

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 03:58:37 GMT

so i went to memphis a couple of weeks ago. it was so amazing. i got to see ryan and hunter, of whom i hadnt seen in forever. we got super loaded until the wee hours of the morning. just like the old days. i had an amazing and unexpected welcome when we arrived at the complex to see ETID. there was basically a 8 man/WOman dogpile on me right in the entrance. would have to say i missed gettin loaded and eating at krystals. to top the weekend off, we ran up a 51 dollar tab at IHOP and walked out without paying a cent.

not much else has been happening.

i love ponies.

FYI. i dont like colliflower.

in other news, im either going to houston or my grandparents for turkey day.

last weekend i had an amazing time doing drugs with some friends and watching a couple of movies. cant say i payed too much attn. to the movie.

i got expelled from d-town so now i am in the process of getting my GED. BRCC better be ready for me in january. fuck high school, i get to start college a semester early.

311 is in a few weeks.

im going to Georgia to see the rocket summer in november.

THE END

um yea. so i havent updated in a while.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 18:39:27 GMT

ok so its been forever since ive updated. typical shit. i let myspace take over all my LJ time.

ok so yea. a brief summary of my summer. moved back to baton rouge expecting to reunite with my best friend/ girlfriend. got my ass beat and sent to the hospital. been lead on. done lots of drugs since those incedents. cant control myself anymore. i need stability and a significant other. not to be "emo" or anything, but this being alone thing sucks pretty bad.

ive been waiting all this time to be something i cant define

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 16:50:08 GMT

so i dont really like to update... i like to fill out all this bullshit though. your comments are appreciated

What is your name? Eric

Are you named after anyone? nope

What's your screename? chokemyvoice and/or killmesoftly1220

Would you name a child of yours after you? Never

If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? i like my name just fine

Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? nope

Basics

Your gender: male

Straight/Gay/Bi: straight

Birthdate: 12-23-87

Your age: 17

Age you wish you were: 18

Your height: 5'12

Eye color: blue

Happy with it? yes sir

Hair color: Blonde

Happy with it? sometimes

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: southpaw nurka

Your living arrangement: mom, dad, brother
Have any pets? yes

Piercings? 3. 1/2" gauges and lip ring

Tattoos? none as of yet

Obsessions? bass, cars, music

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you have any secrets? not that i can remember

Do you hate yourself? nah

Do you like your handwriting? not at all

Do you have any bad habits? depends on who you ask

What is the compliment you get from most people? i dont really get compliments

If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?
Shit boy! You move way too god damned much!

Can you sing? hells no

Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? sometimes i wish i were tinkerbell. but other than that..no

If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yeah i think so

Are you a daredevil? unless im on a bike or behind the wheel of a car, no.

Do you have a journal? LJ

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? my face (ugly face ass nigga)

Do you think you are emotionally strong? not in the least

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? cant remember

What do you like the most about your body? torso

And least? legs

Do you think you are good looking? not at all

Are you confident? depends on the situation

Do You...

Smoke? yes

Do drugs? yes

Read the newspaper? classifieds

Pray? fuck that

Go to church? Hell no

Talk to strangers who IM you? sometimes

Sleep with stuffed animals? nope

Take walks in the rain? rain sucks

Talk to people even though you hate them? very seldom

Would or Have You Ever?

Liked your voice? no

Been out of the country? no

Done drugs? yes

Gone skinny dipping? hell no

Had a medical emergency? i fractured my pelvis when i was a kid

Had surgery? nope

Ran away from home? only for a little while

Played strip poker? um no

Been picked on? yeah

Been on stage? yeah

Slept outdoors? been camping

Thought about suicide? no

Pulled an all nighter? all the time

Gone one day without food? gone several days without food

Talked on the phone all night? i know how to hold a conversation

Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? yes

Slept all day? i do that everyday

Killed someone? i would like to

Made out with a stranger? nope

Had sex with a stranger? nope

Kissed the same sex? nope

Had a dream that came true? i wish

Broken the law? everyday

Met a famous person? im pretty sure i have

Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? dont we all

Stolen anything? once again, everyday

Been on radio/tv? im sure i have

Been in a mosh-pit? what do you think? i live in M-Town

Had a nervous breakdown? um yeah

Bungee jumped? i want to

Had a dream that kept coming back? yeah, don't remember it though

Beliefs

Belive in life on other planets? yes indeed

Miracles? not hardly

Magic? in a way

God? still debating that one

Satan? i aint ascared of satan, but i tell you one thing. satan better be ascared of me.

Santa? no

Ghosts? FUCK YES

Luck? sometimes

Love at first sight? no comment

Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? nope

Easter bunny? no

Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? YES YES YES YES FUCK MOTHER FUCK FUCKING YES GOD DAMMIT

Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? nah

Do you wish on stars? only the shooting kind

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? no, there is a higher power. who is to say what IT is though.

Where do you think we go when we die? in the ground

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? yes,

Who's the one person that knows most about you? Lindsey

Last person you talked to online? Jeff

Who do you talk to most online? Lindsey

Who are you on the phone with most? Lindsey

Who do you trust most? myself

Who listens to your problems? Lindsey, in most cases

Who's on your shit-list? Michael Williams, Jeremy Penix, Josh Wheat

Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? only the ones with penises

Do you always feel understood? only when i talk to certain people

Do you trust others easily? all too often

Who's house were you last at? Hunters

Do your friends know you? yes

Friend that lives farthest away: most of my friends like 450 miles away

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake? not if its real

Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them ? yeah

Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? idk

What's the last present someone gave you? lindsey gave me a book on how to get a guy.....

Do you like someone? im dating her

Do you consider that person hot?no, she is beautiful

Are you dating someone? yup

Who Was the Last Person...

That haunted you? um no one

That you laughed at? hunter

That laughed at you? hunter

You went shopping with? hunter

That broke your heart? Lindsey

To disappoint you? Lindsey

To ask you out? nobody

To make you cry? Lindsey

To brighten up your day? M-Town negras

That you thought about? Lindsey

You saw a movie with? Jeff and Paul... SIN CITY FUCKING OWNS

You talked to on the phone? David

You talked to through IM/ICQ? Jeff

You saw? hunter

Right This Moment...

What are you wearing right now? black t shirt and khaki pants

Body part you're touching right now:penis

What are you worried about right now? money

What book are you reading? gateway bullshit

What's on your mousepad? roadrunner

Are you bored? yea

Are you tired? wide awake

Are you talking to anyone online? NO

Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no, they are in school

Are you listening to music? Blood Brothers

holy shit! im bored

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 19:25:55 GMT

im bored. i dont go to school. i have nothing better to do with my time.

1) name: Eric
2) Nicknames; Eric Ray, Stonie
3) Age: 17
4) Sex: Male
5) Single Or Taken: Taken.
6) Grade: n/a
7) Current location: M- Town
8) Date of Birth: December 23, 1987
9) Astrological Sign: Capricorn
10) Place of Birth: Columbus, GA
11) Where Do You Live: Memphis, TN
12) Who Do You Live With: Brother, Mother, Dad
13) Parents' Names: Gary, Karen
14) Siblings' Names: Kaleb
15) What Elementary School Did You Go To: Smiths Station, Daphne, and Lanier Middle
16) What High School Do You Go To: did* Dutchtown and Bolton

SKIN DEEP:
19)Eye Color: The bluest of the blue
20)Hair Color: Blonde
21)Height: 5'12
22)Glasses Or Contacts: neither
23)Piercings (if none, would you?): 1/2 inch gauges, lip, nose
24)Tattoos (if none, would you?): planning on it
25)Shoe Size: 12

LAST:
26)Thing Youve Eaten: Schlotzskys
27)Person You've Called: Lindsey Anne
28) person that's Called You: Lindsey Anne
29)Person You've IM-ed: Derik
31)Movie You Saw In the Theater, and With Who: Sin City with Jeff and Paul
32)Movie You Rented: Requiem of a Dream
33)TV Show You've Watched: d'Fused
34)Thing You Did With You're Family: Sat in the Living room with them
35)Thing You Did With You're Friends: They skipped, came over, got stoned, TMNT marathon
36)Thing You Wrote: my name
37)Thing You've Bought: Melee, Everyday Behavior
38)Time You Cried: last week?
39)Time You Laughed: This Morning
40)Time You Fell: havent done that in a while
42)Time You Showered: who knows
43)Person You've Shared A Drink With: me. all my friends have mono
44)Place You Slept Over At: Ruben's
45)Time You've Seen Snow: My birthday :)
46)Time You've Seen Hail: Yesterday
47)Last Song You’ve Listened To: Walls- Emery
48)Song You've Had Stuck In Your Head: "You put the lime in the coke..."
49)Song You've Downloaded: Circa Survive (band)
51)Time You've Fought With Someone: Yesterday
52)Person You've Kissed: Lindsey Anne
53)Person You've Hugged: Lauren

OPPOSITE SEX:
55)What Do You Notice First: Eyes.
56)Turn Ons: Good taste in music, honesty, not ugly
57)Turn Offs: liars
58)Eye color: green or blue
59)Ideal Hair Color: blonde
60)Ideal Height: shorter than me
61)Ideal Hobbies For Them To Have: shows, being with me, smoking weed, smoking weed, smoking weed
62)Ideal Sports For Them To Play: rolling joints/ blunts, packing bowls
63)Ideal Personality Traits: happy

HAVE YOU EVER?
64)Fallen In Love: yes
65)Gone on A Date: yes
66)Made Out With Someone: yep
67)Gotten Drunk: tooo drunk
68)Done Drugs: i dont do drugs. i smoke weed.
70)Gone To A Party: saturday... lil davey smokes again!!!
71)Been Completely Intoxicated: too many times
72)Woken Up With A Hangover: never
73)Wanted Someone You Couldn't Have: sure
74)Wished on A Shooting Star: couple times
76)Cheated On A Test: i can cheat like nobodys buisness
77)Cried After Watching A Commercial: no
78)Purposely Set Something On Fire: Yeah
79)been Heart Broken: seems to be the trend with me
80)Broke Someone Else's Heart: not that i know of.
81)Had A Job: Schlotzskys Deli... we spit in your food right.
82)Cooked A Full Meal For Guests: every GEE DAY day.
83)laughed and you couldn't stop!: few times
85)Watched The Sunrise: yes
86)Watched The Sunset: yep
87)Been To An Exotic Place: no
88)Been Swept Away By A Current: once. gulf shores. lots of jelly fish. it hurt.
89)Been On A Freefall Ride: hells yea
90)Made The Wrong Decision On Purpose: only to piss off my dad.
91)Stolen Something: all the time
92)Broken Something Out Of Anger Or Sadness: hahahahahahaha. me?! nooo! NEVER! yea, right.
93)Hurt Yourself Out Of Anger Or Sadness: only from hitting things/ people
94)Pinched Yourself To See If You Were Dreaming: nah
95)Cussed Someone Out: im good at making people feel dumb/ worthless
96)Bungee-Jumped: i wish
97)Broke the Law: everyday
98)Been Arrested: haha... yea
99)Made Yourself Throw Up: only when im too drunk
100)Kept A Secret From Everyone: mhm
101)Had an Imaginary Friend: nope
103)Pictured Your Crush Naked: i dont have to picture my crush naked... she knows what im talking about. ;)
104)Fallen For Your Best Friend: yes, yes, yes, yes
105)Been Rejected: yes
106)Rejected Someone: so bad that shes on anti depressants
107)Used Someone: im good at that
108)Been Cheated On: unfortunatly
109)Regretted Doing Something: not really
110)Regretted Not Doing Something: yep

DO:
111)You Have a BF/GF?: yep
112)You Have a Crush on Someone: only the g/f
113)You Think About Suicide: i think about how stupid it is
)You Believe in Online Dating: online, no. long distance. yes
116)You Find You Attractive: not at all
117)You Drink: yes
118)You Do Drugs: yes
119)You Smoke: yes
121)You Like Roller Coasters: no. i LOVE roller coasters
122)You Wait Online All Day For One Person: all too much.
123)Save AIM/MSN Conversations: yes
124)Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: no

WHAT / WHERE / WHO:
128)Kind of Shampoo Do You Use: Tresemme
129)Soap Do You Use: dial
130)Are You Most Scared of: ghosts
132)Do You Want To Get Married: in due time
133)Do You Want To Live: sure do
134)Makes You Laugh the Most: Hunter Harper
136)Makes You Smile: Lindsey Anne
137 )Gives You A Funny (good or bad) Feeling When You See Them: Lindsey.
138 )Easiest to Talk too: Lindsey Anne.

THIS OR THAT :
153) Me or You: You
154) Cold or Hot: Hot
55) Pool or Hot Tub: both
156) Shower or Bath: shower
159) Water or Tea: tea
160) Fruit or Vegetables: Fruit
161) TV or Movie: movie
162) Radio or CD: CD
163) Phone or IM: phone
164) Cookies or Cake: both
165) Food or Drink: Food
166) Baseball or Soccer: what can i say? im an all-star at both :)
167) Football or Basketball: neither
168) Tennis or Badminton: Tennis
169) School or Work: Work
170) Cash or Check: check. i spend cash too fast
171) Blonde or Brunette: blonde
172) Hug or Kiss: kiss
173) Ocean or Lake or Pool: pool
176) Summer or Winter: Summer
177) Spring or Fall: Spring
178) Day or Night: Night
179) Sunrise or Sunset: Sunset
180) Math or Science: math
181) English or History: history
182) Music or Art: both... once again. great at both. who knew?!
184) Dr. Pepper or Root Beer: jones soda
185) 7UP or Sprite: jones soda
186) Smoothie or Juice: depends
187) Cursive or Print: cursive
188) Lace or Satin: naked...
189) Flowers or Candy: candy
190) Scruff or Clean Shaven: i dont like to shave, but i like the smoothness

FOR OR AGAINST:
193) Using Someone: Against
194) Suicide: against
195) Killing People: if they deserve it, i have no problem killing people
196) Smoking: against, if you never have or dont. and if you already do, it doesnt matter what i say.
197) Doing Drugs: i smoke rocks
198) Premarital Sex: only with someone you love. and if you're not in a relationship.
199) Driving Drunk: against

NUMBER...
201) Of Times You've Had Your Heart Broken: twice
202) Of Hearts You've Broken: none
203) Of Scars On Your Body: tooo many
204) of times you have fallen inlove: 2

YOU ..:
206) Want: a normal reltionship with the same person
207) Wish: my zippo would work
208) Love: Lindsey, friends, bass, art, music
209) Miss: not knowing what it feels like to be broken
210) Fear: ghosts
212) Hear: emery
213) Wonder: how much can i make off of this sack?

RIGHT NOW ...:
214) Wearing: work clothes. NBs white- t, khaki pants
215) Eating: rolos
216) Drinking: root beer
217) Thinking About: i have to pee

The teeth and lungs

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 16:17:29 GMT

so its been absolutely forever since i have even paid attention to or rememberd that i've even had this thing.

the girlfriend and i are still doing great and making the long distance thing work to the best of our abilities. i love her dearly.

ive been hanging out with the usual group of homos lately. we always find a way to have fun. ex: sing-a-longs and pizza/ orange fights.

im scene as shit...j/k. oh yea you know it. i got my 1/2 inch gauges accented by the nice shiny lip ring. im scene as shit now gimme my fuckin scene points.

not alot has been going on worth me putting it in here. BUT i am going to see the early november in february. along with hopes fall, head automatica and hawthorne heights. should be fun. i am deathly excited.

ill be back in the 225 soon enough. dont you bitches worry.

suckin D! GDGDGD! eat a dizzick!

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 04:45:02 GMT

Boyfriend neglects his journal so I'm going to update for him. He told me to. I think he thinks it'll be cute.

He's wrong. I mean, what's cute about this?
Nothing.

I do love my boyfriend. That's cute, I guess.

tee hee

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 22:58:20 GMT

well i spent a week in BR and it was GREAT!

i spent the night at a different house everynight. and saw lindsey almost everyday.

homecomming was amazing and so are our pictures.

i dont have much to say except that im about to go see circle takes the square and it should be incredible.

i miss you...
i love you, lindsey anne
<3

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 02:36:11 GMT

today made me feel shitty

Last night I swallowed liquor and a lighter and this morning I threw up fire.
But it's nothing new.
I've been piecing it together
and it's got something to do with every look thrown like a knife across a crowded room.
Every slow and quiet car ride I spent drinking in the backseat.
Every stupid melody to every stupid song.
And every stupid word that everybody's hanging on.
What difference does this difference in age make?
I know how it ends... she'll kill me quick. So call 911.
I'm already dead but someone should be caught
and held responsible for this bloody mess.
Last night I fell asleep next to a liar and I woke up with a shiner.
And it's all that I remember from a night spent lying on my back
with a view of a stone white ceiling and the back of your head.
This dark and quiet bed felt like the middle of nowhere.
We beat each other up just like we always do.
When I'm talking to myself I'd always rather be talking to you.
What difference does this difference in age make?
I know how it ends... she'll kill me quick. Call 911.
I'm already dead but someone should be caught
and held responsible for this bloody mess.
Call homicide. Take the case to court.
Her lips taste like a loaded gun and I'm her number one chalk outline on the floor.
They hung her from the bridge on Monday.
The gathering turned into a mob out on the lawn.
The dropped her body in the river.
And school and work returned to normal before long...

im so sorry. im going to go see you again. icd if u wont talk to me. ill be happy just to be able to see you.

i love you

1 day away

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 15:44:48 GMT

ok so some plans had to be rearranged but im leaving saturday morning and thats final

end of the 1st nine weeks came so fast. i think my grades are pretty shitty. 3 B's 2 C's and 1 F. i hate chemistry.

STA home comming is tomaro. ill be there. will you?

let it enfold you

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 01:09:12 GMT

i want a girl to kiss.
[girl= Lindsey Anne]

so yea. today i went to the mall with zach and we hung out with Mike for a while.

2 WEEKS MOTHER FUCKERS!

oh yea!

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 00:50:02 GMT

so i havent updated in forever but thats ok.

friday night i went to the bolton-bartlett game with austin and it was ok. i eneded up sneeking in and tearing a hole in my chucks on the fence. hung out with brandon and jake until the 3rd quarter and they left. i met up with zach, jeff, paul, alex, sam, ashley, david, timmy, and matt around that time and we hung out and made fun of the redneck student section the whole time. after the game was over we went to 5th quarter (which doesnt even make sense because quart means 4)and ate alot of pizza and then matt took me home because hes a good guy like that.

saturday jeff came over and we played our instruments together. this kids good at guitar. and then we got bored and went to davids, then to sonic. after that we called alex and we went to his house. we jumped on the trampoline and found this doll his sister had masacred, so we killed it more. so after that we made pizza rolls and ate them while watching porn and making fun of this chicks wierd looking nipples. after that was over i went to the show and had an amazing time. hung out with jeff and matt the majority of the time. walked over to the gas station with sam and then saw the most amazing screamo band ever. so she sang is soo effing amazing. i didnt even know that the previous show i had hung out with mike and he is the singer. he calls me baton rouge. i bought their cd and wow... thats all i can say. the bass player almost took my head off with the head of the bass. then we had to go so david jeff and i left.

i suggest that the few people go to www.soshesang.com if you havent already.

today i talked to my lover on the fone all day. shes the best. i love her so much.

well its about that time again... sorry to bore you.
<3

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 02:11:29 GMT

now accepting donations for the "Get Eric Back to Baton Rouge Foundation"

any amount and/or idea on how i could possibly make money to get to BR by october 8th would be great.

anybody that would provide me shelter is more than welcome to comment as to let me know who they are and what night between october 10th and 16th would be best for me to stay with them.

none of this is a joke people... im so stressed about seeing her. i have to... can you read that? I HAVE TO!

damn po pos

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:27:25 GMT

WHY WONT THE COPS STOP CHASING MY ASS?!?

too busy missing you...

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 17:13:55 GMT

i wish i could say things to you like this song does...

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head
When you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

impatiently waiting

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 20:51:05 GMT

38 days...

the job hunt is being a bitch. i cant find one anywhere. i wish someone would hire me already. im running out of time. i need money NOW!

ive been hanging out with zach lately. hes one cool kid. ok just imagine this.. has the looks of lee, the brains of steven, the humor of eric beesh, and hes more random than drew. yep hes definately one cool guy. we did some funny stuff last night. i wont go into details, but we did watch these two hobos fight for a good five minutes. good times.

well i had been anticipating the As Cities Burn show for atleast a week and i talked Zach into going and we get there just to find out that they decided not to show up... bastards.

im in a band again. these guys are good at playign their instruments and me, well im ok. i hope they play as well together as they do individually. that would be great.

friday i am going to the Caravan benifits show. ive heard that there will be some amazing bands there. we will see how that works out.

my class ordered our class rings today. mine is going to look so cool. we get them in december. yay!

i love her more now than i ever have before. <3

and these tragic nights and afternoons wreak disaster...

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 20:22:33 GMT

Jynx me something crazy
Thinking if it's three
then I'm as smooth as the skin
rolls across the small of your back
It's too bad it's not my style
If you need me
I'm out and on the parkway,
patient and waiting for headlights,
dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the
inconsistencys of my moods

It's times like these where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this
It's times like these, where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this

It's a campaign of distraction
and revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(it's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(it's a shame I doubt they even care)
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(it's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(it's a shame I doubt they even care)
Don't let me down

But whatever I have gettin myself into
maybe has been slicing inches from my waist
It's my fist vs. the bottle
(and thank god you weren't there...)
And that's how bad could this hurt
or against I won't feel a thing
(and thank god you weren't there...)
I tell you all about it
It's just not working out
(...to watch me hit bottom)
not working out

It's a campaign of distraction
and revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(it's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(it's a shame I doubt they even care)
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(it's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(it's a shame I doubt they even care)
Don't let me down

This is why we were taught so much better than this
This is why we were taught so much better than this

This is what living like this does

will someone please call the surgion who can crack my ribs and...

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 22:52:05 GMT

well its been a while since ive updated and i still dont have anything to write about. ive been hanging out with brandon and austin lately and saturday i am going to my first memphis show. i have been promised that it will be well worth my while. school is going ok. this guy jeff wants me to hang out with him sometime and play some good ole music together.. begining of a band maybe? school food sucks. so i dont eat it. well i have nothing more to say about my boring life...i shall update the next time something worthy of updating happens.

<3

Interesting...

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 02:15:29 GMT

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Liveliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Social Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Abstractness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Introversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Independence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Tension	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%

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Tue, 17 Aug 2004 20:39:50 GMT

today has been a good day. there's no one particular reason that it has been, i guess i'm just having a good day...

goo-bye

rain storms take me away to the north...

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 15:35:36 GMT

ok lets see...

the first week at the new school was kinda ok. i met alot of new people and i only hate one class (french 2). None of my teachers believe in giving homework on the weekend. we'll see how long that lasts. my english teacher is crazy. she will be explaining how to set up a paragraph and mid sentence say "Mampa Tampa!". yea thats interesting. the school is huge. there are almost 3000 students, 500 of us are new so i dont feel too out of place. we have 15 minutes of lunch and one of my friends reminds me of jesse parker and jesse viator at the same time... just imagine that combo. hes a really cool guy. no one here likes blink nearly as much as people do in louisiana, its kinda sad. :(

yesterday was kinda cool. my new friend kyle and i walked to sonic. doesnt seem like much of anything when i say it but its a 1 hour walk one way. so it took us about 2 hours and 15 min just because he wanted an ocean water. anyways. when we got home my dad told me i had to go get some stuff for him at home depot... he didnt have to tell me twice. i took his keys and was gone in a little over 2 minutes.

well when i got home it was kinda late so i had to get dressed so we could go out to eat at Casa Mexicana. it was pretty good, certainly better than las palmas, but today im regretting eating as much as i did... if u know what i mean. :/

oh yea! i have a job now! i start next week i think. so ill be seeing all of you people really soon.

well i guess i will stop boring you with this really long entry now so goo-bye.

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